The search continues...

There she sits.  Feeling a bit deflated, quite tired, and wondering why am I doing this?  Spending twenty minutes applying for one teaching job.  Filling out the applications, answering the questions, the list goes on and is ever-changing.  Knowing she is a really good teacher and any district would be lucky to have her.  She is hard working, caring and gives so much of herself to every student and their families.  She is the teacher you want your child to have.  She will come early, stay late, give up her lunch and prep hours if lucky enough to have them.  All in an effort to better provide your child with the skills they need to be successful. 

Why does she do this?  No, it is not for the summers off or the long Christmas and Easter vacations.  To be honest these times off are used to take her own classes to better herself in order to be a better teacher for your child.  These "vacations" are often used to recharge the inner battery, prepare for the next years students, and learn new curriculum. 

So, here she sits typing this and wondering, " Why can I not find a job!"  She is not expecting one to be handed to her.  She will fight to get it and to keep it.  She just wants the chance to show you how amazing...yes AMAZING she is. 

 Having the ability to get a non-verbal child to communicate, a shy student to smile in front of class, a student who "sees things" be accepted, a student who sees backwards letters learn to read, a parent who is left with 5 kids and no job or money be successful, and to maintain an incredibly happy home-life for herself deserves a chance to be a model to our future leaders. 

This being said.  I am done for the day filling out twenty-minute applications to only have them sent back automatically with an e-mail stating the position is filled.  If it is filled why did you not take the posting off the site?  Why did you allow me to waste twenty-minutes of my precious life?  Why? Why? WHY?

Tomorrow is another day!  I will fill out more applications that will be returned with a very similar e-mail.  They cycle will repeat again the next day, and the next, and the next.  Until She finds a job in which she can make yet another difference in a life.  Because she...I know this is what I am meant to do.

Reality T.V. Big Brother

I am a reality TV junkie.  I have many shows that I watch, but by far prefer Big Brother.  I have watched it religiously since season one.  However, due to my being cheap, and not wanting to spend money on myself I never purchased the chat feeds.  I mean after all, those chat rooms are filled with perverts anyway.

Last summer my husband realizing I was bored and depressed due to other issues that went on during the year said," I can't take seeing you like this anymore."  He asked me to take a class or something to get my mind off my past work experience (now that is another blog!  Don't let me forget to tell you about that one!).  Later that night he came out and said Big Brother was starting and I should sign up for the feeds.  And I did.

The very first room I was dropped into was perfect.  I was having a blast!  Some of these people have been together since the very first show.  Others were just there a few years.  This group was so accepting and loving.  Some were a bit scary at first.  They were so forward.  I remember one day one asking when the day of my last period was.  Don't want to get into why that was the topic of the hour...but man these people are forward (and I love them for that).

The summer went on and now a year later I am awaiting another season of Big Brother.  It starts on Thursday the 7th.  My feeds are purchased.  I have been chatting with my friends already!   This is serious stuff.  As we speak I am making a turkey so that I do not have to cook for a few days.  Working on a cleaning schedule so that it does not get into the way of the most active feed times.

If you are a fan of Big Brother, I strongly suggest you sign up for the feeds.  You will not regret it, and who knows, maybe you will find a group of friends like I did...maybe you'll even find me!

To blog or not to blog.

This morning I woke up knowing I was going to do this.  A blog.  I have been thinking about it for a while now.  I even wondered why blog?  Shouldn't I just get a notebook and start writing dear diary...but then I thought if I do that I will never really do it.  I will start and it will end up in a pile like the others.  Until one day when Steve (my hubby) says, "Jen, this looks private."  To which I would give my usual, "just rip it and toss it out".

But now, here I am writing and debating...do I put it out there.  Who is going to care enough about what I write to read it?  Who is going to comment?  What are they going to say?  What if they read it but then don't respond?  What if they do respond?  Dear Lord, what if I misspell something or put a comma where it doesn't belong!!!!

Okay...take a deep breath.  If you want to correct my spelling, comment on my post, or just read that is fine with me.  I have always described myself as an open and honest person.  Anything I have gone through is all a part of who I am.  I am who I am for everything that has happened to me.  I have no secrets...at least none that if you ask the right question I wouldn't answer.  That has been the me I have known my whole life.  I do not plan on changing that now.  So,  here we go...